I couldn't be any happier right now. Finally, we're making moves. I'm so happy to be with him again. I'm determined to give this last shot all that I've got! I love him. Opportunities like this hardly ever come, so I need to cherish every moment I have. I never know when it will be my last. I love him with all of my heart. This is it! So bring it on!

:)

I must say.. This week has been amazing!
I don't think there has been one day where I've been unhappy. Sure, a few nights I would be sad bc I miss him so much but I never left it affect my mood. I was in such an awesome mood all week! It was never changing! Considering I was tired and hardly got enough sleep, you'd think I would be grouchy, but I wasn't! Everytime I heard his voice, it just made me so happy.
Today he got promoted! That's amazing news:) I'm so happy for him. Whatt an accomplishment! I tell ya, he is so amazing. He's brave and strong. Not to mention he's sexy handsome and all mine! I miss and love him very much. You know what else..

I'm gonna have his babies one day:)

♥

I love how I can laugh hysterically with him and I'm not embarrassed to let him hear it.

I wonder if she got hers too?

:/ uhhh.I hate this.

He makes me feel safe, even though he's a world away:/ I miss him terribly, and u better believe I am counting down the days until he is back. I decided to count how many weeks I have until mid december bc I figure that's when he's supposed to be back.looks like 14 weeks counting this one:/ after every weekend I am going to cross it off my calendar:) I can't wait to get to week 2 or even 3! To be that close to seeing him, is going to be the greatest feeling. I know I probably won't be seeing him until sometime in january but that's okay. As long as he's back from over there, I'll be just as happy:) I love him and miss him so much.

Today is 9/11. I'll admit, I am so sad. In tears:(
When I was younger I didn't realize what any of this meant. I was just a little sixth grader getting ready for school one morning. Brushing my teeth,I remember seeing the tv screen filled with flames and smoke.I remember it like it was yesterday. So scary.
Now that I'm older and wiser, I realize a lot more. My 20 year old mind has more knowledge of what's going on around me compared to my little 11 year old mind. I hate this stupid war. I'm so angry with what's going on. I can't speak politics bc honestly I wouldn't know what I'm talking about but all I know is people have lost their lives bc of this.
Not to mention ronnie being a part of it. Risking his life being around those crazy bastards everyday and for what?? This is never going to stop. Just bring him home already. Give him and the other men and women a chance to start their lives. He's so young, hasn't even had a chance to start his life with me. If something ever happened, I swear I would truly hate this world. I thank god for him everyday. He's so brave. I've never met anyone like him before. I'm so thankful he's in my life again. I love him so much. I worry about him everyday. It kills me knowing that the only reason we are apart is because of all of this. Why did he have to leave? Why couldn't he just be here with me.
I love you so much. Thank you for all that u are doing. You are so strong and so brave. I can't wait to marry you ronnie. Please be safe. And once again thank you baby for everything ur risking just to make sure these people, who don't even deserve it most of the time, can have a safe world to live in. When you come back from hell, I'll make sure you have a life as perfect as heaven.
I love you.

Okay okay.. So I just have to admit..I miss him. So much. That it hurts to think about all the time that has to go by before I will ever see him again. The song "tik tok" by kesha just came on and it made me think of him. I remember when I went to visit him in december, I made him listen to that song. And his friend played it in his truck for me and both of them just looked at me like I was crazy! Haha aww I get buuterflies just thinking about those times when I would fly out to see him. I remember the first time was scary:( second time was not so bad except for when I thought I was gonna have to stay over night in the airport by myself:( uhh I don't know what I would have done:/ I was happy when everything worked out tho. I miss him:( regardless of everything that's happened, I know it made us stronger. My love for him has grown so much. This time spent apart was for the better I think. It was hard, but at the same time it was easy. I'm just glad we're both wanting this again, and this time it will last. I don't care what anyone says, all I know is I think its worth it, he thinks its worth it, so we'll make it work. I feel that this time around it has to be about compromise, and honesty. I think we have to consider each others feelings more this time. Its no longer just about me, its about him too. Aww:) I'm so happy.I love being in love♥

waiting...

I've never checked my email this many times before.I have a blackberry and even though my email account is set up so that whenever I get a new email it will send it directly to my phone, I still feel like I should double check, just in case my stupid phone doesn't notify me. I'm so anxious. I get nervous just thinking about what the email will say. Will he admit he misses me? Will he tell me he loves me still? Will he still want me after everything I put him through over the past 4 months? Even after the year and a half of our relationship? As I lay here, still and quiet in my bed wrapped in my blankets, I wonder where he is right now and what he is doing. Have I crossed his mind at all today? If so, how long did it stay in his mind, and how often did the thought of me come? What is it he thought about if he did think about me. I have so many thoughts yet they only seem to come into my mind whenever I lay here alone. My room is cold, yet the empty and nervous feeling leaves my body in a sweat which makes up for it.I wish I could fall asleep but I think this is gods way of punishing me. He wants me to lay and have these ideas and thoughts rot my mind.I literally feel like an apple being invaded my hundreds maybe even thousands of ants. My brain is the apple and these questions are the ants overlapping my mind and consuming my thoughts. I'm lost for words. All I know is..I wish you were here. I pray that whatever my future brings, you will be the center of it and I will be the center of yours too.